Dear Mom and Dad

Since I am writing letters publicly I figured I would do as my husband a.k.a MY Favorite Sailor as suggested me to do MANY times... I am going to write my parents. Tonight as part of my healing and yet still mourning process....

I carry very deep feelings about my parents within myself and never express them publicly until now...

Dear Mom and Dad,

I miss you so much.

I know that my brothers and sisters miss you both so much as well.

There are many times that I turn to pick up the phone to call you both and then realize that I can't.
I know that you hear me in my thoughts and see my tears but I want you to know that you are not forgotten.
Everyday I think of you both and wish that you were here physically to see all of the greatness that all of your children have done and could have shared in it here with us physically here on Earth.
I do think that it is amazing that you have the best seat in watching all of us from heaven and so that you never have to feel that you are not dividing your time amongst all of kids evenly.
It is even more great that I never saw you grow old or gray, I will always remember you as young vibrant parents.
I know that it is because of the holidays that makes these feelings so much more profound but there is NEVER a day that I don't remember you all. I love you mom and dad and thank you for teaching me all that I know today.
When I think of my struggles I remember that it is because of you I have the opportunities that I have today, not once did either of you complain about your struggles in life or did you feel robbed for knowing that your life was to be too short.
You taught us not to worry about the material things and not to worry about what others thought or did and to live life to the fullest because we all know that it can be too short.
I hope to live my life as you have taught me and dedicate everyday to you both.
Miss and love you.

Jai

Dear Not So Little Bro...

This time next week you will be a married man. WOW!

I must admit this has me a little choked up.
I wanted to call mom and tell her about the last minute thoughts and ideas that I had and when I remembered that I couldn't I wanted to share with you that I know that you are about to have the best day of your life and not to worry, MOM and DAD will be there both with you all.
(This goes without saying but big sis will be there if you need me to give you a mama hug. :) )

I know that they are watching the preparations and smiling with happiness.
I know I am and I am only stuck on this rock. LOL

MY Favorite Sailor and I wish you and your wife to be nothing but the best.

This past year and a half has been one heck of a ride for MY favorite Sailor and I and we want you both to know that we are here for you both.
Marriage is a beautiful relationship that you both will learn how to love and appreciate every aspect of throughout your lifetime. We both are still learning ourselves and we thank God for the opportunity that he has given us and we respect that He will guide us just like He will guide you both.

Take your time and enjoy it, you have a whole lifetime ahead of you both.
Love you and can't wait to come home and see you all!
I am TEXAS bound! :)

Aloha <3

Dearest Love...

Have you ever reread an email or letter 100000000 times?

ME?

Guilty!

I am finding that when I need a moment or two, ok.... MORE often than NOT.

I am reading MY favorite sailor's email/letters over and over....

Guess it's the darn holidays and the holiday spirit catching up with me.

So..Lub if you're reading... I LOVE YOU and your emails make my day!